Azeez Al-Shaair reveals he was ‘in a dark’ place after suspension for viscous hit on Trevor Lawrence

Azeez Al-Shaair reveals he was 'in a dark' place after suspension for viscous hit on Trevor Lawrence

Houston Texans linebacker Azeez Al-Shaair has shed light on his mindset in the aftermath of the three-game suspension he was handed by the NFL.

Al-Shaair sparked major controversy in the Texans’ 23-20 win over the Jacksonville Jaguars after flying into Trevor Lawrence with his elbow first, despite the rival quarterback sliding to give himself up on the play.

As a consequence, the league handed down a three-game suspension without pay that left Al-Shaair questioning if he’d ever play football again.

‘The things that you can think when somebody says they’re in a dark place, as dark as you can go is where I was truthfully,’ he said, speaking to reporters for the first time since the suspension on Wednesday.

Al-Shaair added that ‘it was hard for me to see myself playing football again’ before he met with NFL commissioner Roger Goodell and league executives Troy Vincent and Jon Runyan.

Al-Shaair was ejected from the December 21 game over the incident, which left Jaguars players and coaches seething and sparked a bench-clearing brawl.

Azeez Al-Shaair has shed light on his mindset in the aftermath of the three-game suspension

Azeez Al-Shaair has shed light on his mindset in the aftermath of the three-game suspension

The Houston Texans linebacker was handed the ban after a vicious hit on Trevor Lawrence

The Houston Texans linebacker was handed the ban after a vicious hit on Trevor Lawrence 

He had to be held back by his Texans teammates as the melee ensued while Lawrence, who was eventually carted off the field, laid motionless on the turf.

The quarterback, who was later confirmed to have sustained a concussion, clenched both fists following the hit  — movements consistent with what’s referred to as the ‘fencing response,’ which can be common after a traumatic brain injury.

Al-Shaair said that he understood the suspension, but disagreed with how he was characterized by Runyan in the letter informing him of the punishment. It included Runyan telling Al-Shaair: ‘Your lack of sportsmanship and respect for the game of football and all those who play, coach, and enjoy watching it, is troubling and does not reflect the core values of the NFL.’

He said he needed to talk to Runyan and other NFL executives to understand how they viewed him as a player before he could return to the field.

‘I really had a moment of, there’s no way I can go out and play football again if this is how people that I work with view me,’ Al-Shaair said.

He said Runyan told him that he was watching the play and the ensuing melee when he wrote the letter and that he was only referring to those moments and not his entire career in his comments about his sportsmanship.

‘But the way he typed it, he said got obviously taken out of context,’ Al-Shaair said. ‘I clearly made a mistake (and) the reason why he typed something which ended up being taken out of context as a mistake is because I did something that was obviously not right, me taking my helmet off and me starting another brawl … wasn’t right.

‘But everything prior to that I stand on the fact that I never tried to hurt him,’ he continued.

He had to be held back by his Texans teammates as a melee ensued following the hit

He had to be held back by his Texans teammates as a melee ensued following the hit 

Lawrence, who was later confirmed to have sustained a concussion, clenched both fists

Lawrence, who was later confirmed to have sustained a concussion, clenched both fists

Al-Shaair said he sat in a room not doing anything for about five days after his suspension.

‘It’s like a blur,’ he said. ‘I didn’t eat nothing. I didn’t go anywhere.’

By Friday of that week, some children at a foster care organization in Tennessee that he had met last year when he played for the тιтans sent him messages of encouragement.

‘I got so many different messages like that and I remember just sitting in my bed and I was like: ‘Man, like I can just keep sitting here sad and sulking and just feeling like I’m being misjudged or I can just do what I always do, which is just try to be positive and spread positivity, do the best that I can,’ he said.

He booked a plane ticket to Nashville and got there in time to attend the same event at the foster care organization that he’d attended the previous year.

‘I had so many people saying so many negative things and to see people that were happy to see me and were happy about my presence I think that’s what kind of like snapped me back,’ Al-Shaair said. ‘Like regardless of what’s being said, you know who you are and just lean into that and … from there just crawling myself out of this place.’

When the AFC South champion Texans (9-7) face the тιтans on Sunday, he’ll return for the first time since the hit on Lawrence, and coach DeMeco Ryans is thrilled to have him back. The Texans have been hit hard by injuries and are limping into the playoffs after two straight losses.

‘We’ve missed him over these past three weeks, just missed his presence, his leadership, missed his playmaking ability on the field,’ Ryans said. ‘So, we’re excited to get him back out there and let him knock some of the rust off.’

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